A Lost Ball in the High Weeds

I reach the office scatterbrained again. I sit, clear my head and open my PC. For a moment, I think of the various things that I need to accomplish for today. Suddenly, I remember the sad reality and my mind turns into a cantankerous pith briefly caused by my instant cognizance.  I feel like an idiot, asking myself the same set of questions. I take a deep breath and convince myself not to falter. I am keeping my composure otherwise I can always leave and stick out my tongue at you. Wheeeeeee

A lost ball in the high weeds, I pity you.

Where do We go from Here

I woke up at 6 in the morning today, unwillingly. Dragged myself to the washroom, took a cold shower, brushed my teeth and whatnot. I brushed my hair in the car and was too lazy to put on some make up. I slept the entire time on the way to work. I got out of the car whining and wanting some more sleep. I walked on the parking lot sluggishly and dragging my feet on 3-inch heels. I got on the elevator with my eyes closed. I reached the 8^th floor and was greeted by the guard “Good Morning Maam” and there I was struggling to smile as a form of response. I wasn’t mean nor was I a snob, just lazy and God knows how sleepy I was.

I got on my seat, turned on my computer as I pay respect to my everyday ritual which is to open my email firstly with a surge of hope that our erratic ISP won’t give us any trouble anymore. I opened my browser only to find out that today is not different to the previous days I was ranting and raving over intermittent and slow connectivity, not to mention the emails I have long been expecting which are long past due. I wished for coffee to magically appear in front of me, and save me from being scatterbrained.

I went to Starbucks with Tin, got my favorite grande brewed coffee and what do you know, sometimes I could just get lucky, I won another free coffee for the nth time. We walked back to the office. I stopped by at the bank to get my checkbook, as I was withdrawing money from the ATM machine, I witnessed a brief second of disaster. My Coffee cup slid off the flat surface of the ATM machine, and then I saw my coffee flowing freely on the floor. As soon as I got my checkbook, I decided to go back to Starbucks to get another cup of coffee.

I ordered another cup of brewed coffee and told the coffee master what happened and what do you know, he replaced my coffee for free. This is not advertising but I went out of the door with a big grin on my face. And, as yet, trying to avoid the word “deadline” in my head.

Confessions of a Shoe Addict

I was close to committing a crime, not the crime in your mind but I’m talking about – a lot of times lately, I’m almost close to succumbing in the whimsical indulgence of getting myself a beautiful pair of shoes, er no, I have to be honest not just a pair but all those I find beautiful rather and for me it is like committing a crime because I have made a rule to never spend my money on anything belonging to capricious indulgence. Furthermore I am strongly committed to being frugal as I have goals to achieve.

This is such a big sacrifice and I hope to reap the fruits of my saccharine sacrifice in time.  Good thing I managed to adhere to my rules and even as yet. I am trying my best not to regale the opposing yet beautiful thoughts I have because after all, it was me who made the rules and its me who can amend it. Do you know what I’m thinking? LOL And I’m afraid, I may not be as strong as you think I am but I’ll endure the pain of going home without a big bag of new boots or a calfskin high heel sandals. To think that there is a sale here and there.

Awww poor me.

Hushing

I have never felt this burn out in my entire life, yeah I know you would say – heck, what is new – whiner. But no. I am so burned out that sometimes I just let time slip, and most of the time, I have utterly no reaction on the surface but the massive thoughts in my head are all but quiet.

Make your lazy brain work.

OK, I need to keep my mouth shut.

Hushing