REMEMBERING
This is really very hard to write about, at times when I look back with flashes in my head of the grievous event that has happened, I still couldn’t help myself but succumb in tears. Time flies really, thinking it’s already a year has past since Teejay was diagnosed with brain tumor (even writing this word is a torture).
Below is an excerpt of what I have written a year ago.
2008 was definitely the most tremulous year of my life. I was stomped to hell, shaken vigorously from head to toe, I was dazed, bewildered, helpless, wandering, sobbing, seeking for refuge, filled with utter misery. I was in a deadly maze and a labyrinth of distress perforated every inch of me, it came in bolt, it was fierce and extremely painful. I couldn’t see anything but utter darkness. Seeing him lying on the hospital bed was like standing on the precipice and any minute can turn into a deadly dysphoria, when I look down I can see nothing but pitch-black abyss waiting to swallow me and erase my brief existence leaving no clue but when I look up, I can see a very little light, there I see him standing, the silhouette of his face ignited a spark of hope. I reached out my hand to touch him, screaming at him to stay with me for eternity and to never lose his grip to that little light that makes him visible from the precipice where I’m standing.
PRAYING
I prayed with all the saints and even with Virgin Mary, I prayed with my loudest voice hoping that God would render his marvelous mercy on him, that he will make him stay with me for eternity. I woke up one morning anxious to see the light, I walked and peeped through the glass door of the room and there I saw his beautiful face. God concluded my dysphoria. I was brought to heaven and my sun recrudesced and shone to light all the darkness I saw. Life comes with infinite enigma and could be a real bitch sometimes but God is the greatest and he is the owner of this so called life. Miracles happen, indeed.
The ephemeral beings that we are, life is indeed full of surprises, in a blink of an eye, in a fraction of a second, in a twist of our body while sleeping, in a droplet of sweat we shed, in a single word that we blurt, in just a step we take or in any mundane activity that we do regardless of time and place, infirmity can usurp and imbibes the life out of us; destroys us in a constant moment of disquietude and grief and the only being that we can depend on is the almighty and divine who created us. It is in time of infirmity that we take a moment to call God, our families and friends are gathered in one thought diffusing our silent reveries in a form of prayer – a poignant thing that even in solemn silence or solitude can be heard by our most reverent God.
Unselfish and noble actions are the most radiant pages in the biography of souls. ~David Thomas
I believe in prayer. It’s the best way we have to draw strength from heaven. ~Josephine Baker
GRATEFUL
In the recent tribulation that we have went through, fear subjugated us and it tested our resiliency and faith in God transcendentally. The languid days of pungent reflection and distress formidably perforated our hearts and our minds, slowly shattered our imperturbability. But our downright faith in God has saved us all from this tragic epitome of evanescent life that we have.
To God be the Glory!
Thank you God for everything.
To all of you who prayed for Teejay, THANK YOU SO MUCH. Our most reverent and benevolent God will surely grant you his grace. Thank you all for the support and prayers you have bestowed for him, your utmost care and munificence are greatly appreciated. Please extend our deepest gratitude to all of you, let us all continue to pray for his absolute recovery and wellness. PRAISE GOD!